Christmas… it’s almost here…..

Well… It’s almost here. We have not put up a tree or decorations. Don’t know if we will. It is just something to “work on” and then you have it up for a short time and have to take it down. Sure …..it looks pretty when it is all lit up. But….there are not going to be any gifts under it. Joe and I have been so broke that we haven’t been able to buy ONE gift yet. We just got paid on Friday. Haven’t had time to shop. Nor…. do I really want to be out there fighting traffic and stuff. Honestly…. what is Christmas about?? To me….. it is a celebration of Christ’s birth. Then…. I ask myself… if that is the true meaning… and to me it is… then why does everyone think it is their birthday and we all feel the stress of having to provide gifts to show our love to those we truly do love. I am thankful for my family. I am glad that God has blessed them with life. I only have one wish really. Yes… it would be to see my oldest son Matt. This has been the hardest year yet for us with our finances. But… it has taught me many things….. people put too much focus on material things. I have also learned who my real friends are. Friends are not just there when it is convenient.They should be there when you need them. I am still on the search for a new job. I want to be somewhere where I can work full time. I am in shock that the company I work for has so many draw backs. But, I don’t care to elaborate on them right now. I am sick of being stressed out about them. And, I am fed up with companies where you have to kiss butt in order to move up. It should be like the old days… yes…back in the day where… if you were a hard worker and you gave it everything you got… you would be rewarded for it. That is ok….I still believe. When this world fails me….God will not.