Frustrated

Wow. It has been a long time since I have posted. Many reasons why. I just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive and plan on getting the charms out this week. I will post to my blog as well as my web site when I do it so everyone that was involved can be watching the mail. I am at a really strange point in my life right now. I am usually a person that is strong and can handle alot. But, right now, I am trying to keep thinking positive. There are way too many things going on in my life. Some, I will not post at all for many reasons. I must say…..this is one of the hardest times in my life. My dad came over last night with my mom. I had been sick all weekend( it is amazing what stress does to the body). He looked so sad and so tired. He has been thru half of his radiation treatments now. He is experiencing so many side effects. He told me he is ready to quit. That broke my heart. I love my dad. I told him to please be strong and keep going. I have told him I would go to any support group meetings or do anything he wanted to do. He does not want to go to any. He is 72 now and just tired. I have been praying for him. I am so worn out. I wish I was just dealing with my dad right now and everything that involves. But, as usual, life has to be so much more complicated than that. Like I said, too much. It is just too much for me! Really, only my best friend in Dallas know everything that is going on. With everything acting like a huge tornado right now, I am still trying to find peace as well as happiness. I watched our son and daughter perform at the HS football game this week. That did make me happy as well as proud of them. Anyway, still alive. Hopefully my next post won’t be so …….blah.